Dear Mr. Jim Carrey,
That check you wrote yourself: I get that. I see that. I did that. But enough about manifestation!
I feel called to write this letter, and have felt called, I suspect, for a while now. It’s fun to imagine you reading this. Because we can do anything in our imaginations! ANY. Thing. Anything.
The first time I heard you was when you asked about impersonating Jesus. Because you’re right: where is the boundary of where we stop and where others start? (I feel confident Jesus thought so, too.)
Then I kept hearing you. How you ponder the nature of identity. How you wish everyone had the chance to get what they thought they wanted if only to see that that wasn’t really what they wanted. That’s exactly right. You are exactly right.
Freedom from concern is the whole point. Jerry Seinfeld calls it killing time, and he’s not wrong… But freedom from concern is bigger than that.
I have some feedback for you about free will. I have some questions for you about the "prison" of becoming.
I have written a book that you *may* have been waiting for? Someone is waiting for it, I know that much. If it’s you, it will find its way to your heart. If it’s not you, it will find its way into their heart.
Sending you so much gratitude and, I’m just going to say it, unconditional love.
Hi, guys! Oh... that might be my baby. [Listens] I just put him down for a nap. I had a baby! Four months ago, almost exactly. And it's amazing, right? Bodies are amazing! They're miracles! Look what we can do!
And now my body is a little bigger than it was before. And so I want to re-demonstrate the truth that who we really are is not our bodies. I mean it's part... It's one part of the three-part harmony. Right? It is the packaging. And it's SO miraculous and wonderful to have the packaging, but if you think that how much you weigh is an indicator of how valuable or important you are as a person, it's not. You are a valuable, important, beautiful human being WHATEVER YOU LOOK LIKE. If you want to treat this machine with more reverence, then by all means! Be my guest! Hallelujah! Blessed be! But don't wait until you lose that weight to think that you are good enough or just right. Because that's backwards.
And I am going to weigh myself on camera because I want to show you that I'm not afraid of making myself vulnerable. You ready? Okay here we go. Oof. It's gonna be a lot.
There you have it! I hope this helps you on your journey. Evy Wallace, signing out!
What's worth a million dollars? A parcel of land? A piece of art? Your body? What would you give in order to have a million dollars? How do you establish the value of a thing?
And what if you already had something WAAAAAY more valuable than a million dollars? And what if that thing got BIGGER wehenver you GAVE IT AWAY???!!! Does that sound impossible, mathematically?
Well it's not. Because love is not a zero sum game. Love is something if you give it away, you DO end up having MORE! Thanks, Malvina Reynolds, for singing truth! TRUTH IS TRUTH IS TRUTH!!!
Transcript (Video Link Below)
Hey! Do you know what this means? [Indicates sign that reads “Free Unconditional Love”] Do you know what it means? Free unconditional love?I’ll tell ya! It means that even you, angry, angry one, who is probably not watching this video, even you. I love like I love my child. [Indicates baby in carrier.] I love even you. And it’s a lot of work. [Chuckles.] But it’s worth-it work! It’s necessary work.
I love you as I love my child. And I want you so badly to stop hurting, on the inside. I want your heart to stop hurting. Because a heart… a heart that’s not hurting doesn’t behave the way you are behaving. And it doesn’t matter if you know that, or agree with it. Seven equals seven. Truth is truth. You don’t have to care, or know it, or believe it.
Unconditional love means: no matter what you’ve done, no matter who you are… because I KNOW who you are! I know who you are. You are my beloved. My child. My family. MySELF. I KNOW YOU!
And boy, am I grateful for free will. I dig it. Wouldn’t change that for the world! But you are exercising your free will in a way that is chopping the little golden threads between us! Or ATTEMPTING to chop, because really, it’s impossible. You can’t divide one. [Correction:] You can’t divide ALL.
I love you unconditionally. But I wish you would stop… I want… I wish… I wish for you to take a moment to sit with your own heart (You don’t… You’ll do it if you want to. You won’t if you won’t…) And find where it hurts! Find out why! And figure out how to make it better! That’s what I would do FOR you if I could. That’s what I would MAKE you do if I could. But I can’t. And I’m glad I can’t. What I was saying about free will.
I love you unconditionally. That’s what that means.
Do YOU know that you're loved? If not, I'm happy to remind you. Think maybe you're disqualified from aforementioned love because you've done some hurtful things? Well... I encourage you to stop those hurtful things immediately, but no, you are not disqualified. In fact, I love YOU especially much. I love you because I see that your heart is hurting. I love you because you ARE ME. I love you because that's all we really are, underneath.
After this post, I'm putting my foot down. After this post, I'm putting my phone down. After this post, I'm sitting with silence. After this post, you're welcome to join me.
Just maybe TRY saying it with love in your heart instead of anger. Maybe just TRY saying those words in a different tone, with a different heart. I can promise you something: miracles will ensue. #alllivesmatter #miracles
Someone I Was Mean To is ANOTHER wild idea for a variety show, and guess what?! Today it transformed from idea real to corporal real! Neato, right? I've just wrapped up filming! I ended up deciding not to talk about Josh, as I originally thought I would, but it all unfolded as it needed to, as all things (ultimately) do.
Here's the gist: one human (me, in this case) publicly admitting on record that they/ I behaved in a way they/I wasn't proud of. Admitting fault is not exactly a comfortable place to be, so maybe it will be easier to start by watching someone else do it. Then YOU can take your own turn! #someoneiwasmeanto
It's not easy, or comfortable, but it's TOTALLY worth it. Getting vulnerable and opening up is how we can change the world! Well, it's ONE avenue, anyway...
Her'es another pitch for a segment of a variety show:
1. Gather anonymously-submitted "is it racist?" questions. For example: "is it racist naming your white child after a Black hero?" or "is it racist to say 'can I get an AMEN?' after you've said something passionately in public?" or "is it racist to ask of someone's boyfriend, who is South African, what color he is?" or "is it racist when you ask your Indian friend an Indian question, but the question is about a tribe that your Indian friend doesn't belong to?"
2. Film the host of the show reading one of the questions.
3. Cut to any number of responses from "experts." In my imagination, it's Ava DuVernay and Maha Dakhil and Cornel West and Ali Wong and so on... But really, anybody who has personal experience and/ or academic/ life knowledge would be qualified.
4. Sit back and watch the REAL questions roll in! And watch how many of us will be eager to know the answer(s) to questions we've been too afraid to ask. (Feel free to LEAVE YOUR QUESTION ANONYMOUSLY IN THE COMMENTS BELOW!!!)
5. Yes, I know, this is not about ME and MY fear. I'm just saying. I'm white and I want to help. And this is where my heart guided me when I asked 'what is MINE to do here?' Yeah that's right. My deepest heart was like 'VARIETY SHOW!!!!'